1 00:00:02,680 --> 00:00:04,480 Dear Diary, 2 00:00:04,480 --> 00:00:07,120 Lust has taken over. 3 00:00:07,120 --> 00:00:09,520 No matter what is going on in my life 4 00:00:09,520 --> 00:00:13,560 there is only one thing allowed inside my head right now. 5 00:00:13,560 --> 00:00:16,480 And his name is Finn. 6 00:00:16,480 --> 00:00:19,920 And that's because I kissed him. 7 00:00:19,920 --> 00:00:22,600 Well, technically, kissed him. 8 00:00:22,600 --> 00:00:25,320 Let me explain… 9 00:00:25,320 --> 00:00:28,600 As you know, I kissed Archie. 10 00:00:28,600 --> 00:00:32,560 This is before I knew he was gay so it that still counts. 11 00:00:32,560 --> 00:00:38,600 Archie kissed a girl, reluctantly, called Tracey Croft. 12 00:00:38,600 --> 00:00:44,320 Tracey Croft shared a bit of her kebab and tongue with Chop. 13 00:00:44,320 --> 00:00:46,320 Bleh… 14 00:00:46,320 --> 00:00:51,080 Chop unknowingly kissed Izzy up near Rutland Waters. 15 00:00:51,080 --> 00:00:53,920 Whoever that was can't kiss. It was like kissing a bloody corpse. 16 00:00:53,920 --> 00:01:00,560 Izzy locked lips minutes later with a girl called Julia Fisher. 17 00:01:00,560 --> 00:01:01,800 Now that's how you kiss someone. 18 00:01:01,800 --> 00:01:03,240 Whoo! 19 00:01:03,240 --> 00:01:09,920 And finally, Julia Fisher kissed my Finn. 20 00:01:12,200 --> 00:01:15,960 So there, technically, we have sort of kissed. 21 00:01:16,640 --> 00:01:18,040 Simple. 22 00:01:18,040 --> 00:01:20,840 - Maybe you're in love? - I'm not in love. 23 00:01:20,840 --> 00:01:22,680 How many men do I fancy per week? 24 00:01:22,680 --> 00:01:23,880 Well, this sounds different. 25 00:01:23,880 --> 00:01:25,920 It's not different. And I'm not in love. 26 00:01:25,920 --> 00:01:29,160 I don't even know him. I used to think he was shallow. 27 00:01:29,160 --> 00:01:30,520 And maybe he is. 28 00:01:30,520 --> 00:01:35,240 Maybe I'm just confused because I want him to tickle my kidneys. 29 00:01:35,240 --> 00:01:36,680 What's he like? 30 00:01:36,680 --> 00:01:37,960 Well, he's got this shy 31 00:01:37,960 --> 00:01:39,880 but would be nuclear in bed thing going on. 32 00:01:39,880 --> 00:01:44,000 He really likes music… and… oh, bollocks! Hide! 33 00:01:44,640 --> 00:01:47,000 What the hell is he doing here?! 34 00:01:51,920 --> 00:01:53,960 I thought you said he was shallow? 35 00:01:53,960 --> 00:01:57,600 I think I might be about to commit a sex crime. 36 00:01:57,600 --> 00:02:00,000 I think I might be your accomplice. 37 00:02:00,000 --> 00:02:02,440 …bollocks! 38 00:02:02,440 --> 00:02:05,120 I'm in love, aren't I? 39 00:02:43,600 --> 00:02:46,280 Rae, it's Chloe… again. 40 00:02:46,280 --> 00:02:47,760 Look, we should meet up. 41 00:02:47,760 --> 00:02:50,680 We've got a lot to chat about, so please call me back. 42 00:03:03,600 --> 00:03:05,240 That's it. 43 00:03:05,760 --> 00:03:07,480 What the hell is going on? 44 00:03:07,480 --> 00:03:10,360 We've installed a chin up bar in your doorway. 45 00:03:10,360 --> 00:03:14,800 - Why? - Karim says it's the strongest doorway in the house. 46 00:03:14,800 --> 00:03:16,480 You can't do that! 47 00:03:16,480 --> 00:03:19,000 Rae, he can't leave the house, remember, 48 00:03:19,000 --> 00:03:22,200 and he's got to stay in shape if he wants to keep me interested. 49 00:03:23,440 --> 00:03:24,960 There's no point arguing with you, is there? 50 00:03:24,960 --> 00:03:28,760 No, not really. Not unless you want to pay the mortgage. 51 00:03:28,760 --> 00:03:31,120 Dear Diary, It's been over a decade 52 00:03:31,120 --> 00:03:33,040 since a man's lived in this house. 53 00:03:33,040 --> 00:03:36,920 Now I have a six-foot tall Tunisian sweating in my doorway. 54 00:03:36,920 --> 00:03:40,080 I give it two weeks before mum scares him off. 55 00:03:40,080 --> 00:03:41,840 This came for you. 56 00:03:45,400 --> 00:03:47,360 Just look at my dad. 57 00:03:47,360 --> 00:03:50,320 My mum is so annoying that when they split up 58 00:03:50,320 --> 00:03:52,080 he moved to the Outer Hebrides. 59 00:03:52,080 --> 00:03:55,760 He sent me a couple of postcards a year since I was six. 60 00:03:55,760 --> 00:03:57,920 He never leaves a return address. 61 00:03:57,920 --> 00:04:01,040 Says he doesn't want to stand on my mum's toes. 62 00:04:01,040 --> 00:04:02,720 "Dear Rae," 63 00:04:02,720 --> 00:04:05,880 I always imagine him to have a Scottish accent. 64 00:04:05,880 --> 00:04:07,200 I'm not sure why. 65 00:04:07,200 --> 00:04:10,520 I think he was born in Derby. 66 00:04:10,520 --> 00:04:12,240 "I just wanted to drop you a card 67 00:04:12,240 --> 00:04:13,840 to say that I'm thinking of you. 68 00:04:13,840 --> 00:04:19,400 Stay out of trouble. Lots of love, Victor (Dad)." 69 00:04:19,400 --> 00:04:22,520 He always finishes with a piece of life advice. 70 00:04:22,520 --> 00:04:27,160 "P.S. He who is dishonest only ever lies to himself. 71 00:04:27,160 --> 00:04:31,000 The truthful path is the only one that leads to happiness." 72 00:04:32,320 --> 00:04:33,640 Rae! 73 00:04:39,240 --> 00:04:40,600 What does that look mean? 74 00:04:40,600 --> 00:04:43,040 You mean you don't know? 75 00:04:43,040 --> 00:04:46,560 I thought you knew what was going on in my head at every moment? 76 00:04:46,560 --> 00:04:49,320 Maybe I do, and I want you to tell me. 77 00:04:51,760 --> 00:04:56,960 I'm just… tired of being a phony. 78 00:04:56,960 --> 00:05:02,680 I feel like I've been carrying around this big backpack of bullshit for months. 79 00:05:02,680 --> 00:05:05,280 It's exhausting, you know? 80 00:05:07,600 --> 00:05:10,560 When I told Chloe I'd been ill I felt nervous. 81 00:05:10,560 --> 00:05:14,240 And then angry because she walked out. 82 00:05:14,240 --> 00:05:16,760 But afterwards… 83 00:05:16,760 --> 00:05:21,400 …I felt like I'd put down the big of bullshit for a while. 84 00:05:21,400 --> 00:05:24,920 - Relief? - Right. Relief. 85 00:05:26,080 --> 00:05:30,120 I want to be like a new Rae! 86 00:05:30,120 --> 00:05:32,840 - No more backpack? - Exactly! 87 00:05:32,840 --> 00:05:35,640 And I want us to be able to talk about anything. 88 00:05:35,640 --> 00:05:37,960 Be really honest with each other. 89 00:05:37,960 --> 00:05:40,880 I mean, why not? 90 00:05:40,880 --> 00:05:42,480 I'm loving the new Rae. 91 00:05:42,480 --> 00:05:43,840 So what do you want to talk about? 92 00:05:43,840 --> 00:05:48,200 First of all, I think I'm in love. 93 00:05:48,200 --> 00:05:50,040 Ooh, ooh. What happened? 94 00:05:50,040 --> 00:05:54,440 I dunno. I feel… sick. I feel like I'm floating. 95 00:05:54,440 --> 00:05:57,880 Like a warm breeze could just blow me off the face of the earth. 96 00:05:57,880 --> 00:06:00,040 Oh, yeah, it sounds like love to me. 97 00:06:00,040 --> 00:06:02,400 So, what do I do? 98 00:06:02,400 --> 00:06:05,520 What would the new Rae do? 99 00:06:10,480 --> 00:06:14,760 New Rae needed a manifesto of honesty. 100 00:06:14,760 --> 00:06:17,960 Tell Finn I kind of, sort of love him. 101 00:06:17,960 --> 00:06:20,440 Tell Chloe everything that happened. 102 00:06:20,440 --> 00:06:22,840 Tell everyone I was ill? 103 00:06:29,480 --> 00:06:34,120 This is crazy. He's like looking at porn. 104 00:06:34,120 --> 00:06:36,720 As if he's ever gonna like me. 105 00:06:36,720 --> 00:06:37,880 Rae! 106 00:06:41,240 --> 00:06:43,560 What… What you doing here? 107 00:06:43,560 --> 00:06:45,560 Just came for a walk. 108 00:06:45,560 --> 00:06:49,600 Just keeping it real. Keeping it busy. Real busy. 109 00:06:52,080 --> 00:06:54,120 So how was Knebworth then? 110 00:06:55,160 --> 00:06:56,640 - Crap. - Liar. 111 00:06:56,640 --> 00:06:58,640 I was gutted you couldn't come. 112 00:07:02,280 --> 00:07:04,880 Finn, I wanted to tell you something… 113 00:07:04,880 --> 00:07:06,680 I wanted to talk to you too, actually. 114 00:07:06,680 --> 00:07:09,920 Look, I'm sorry I was a bit of a dick when we first met. 115 00:07:09,920 --> 00:07:13,160 I just… I got you wrong, I guess. 116 00:07:13,160 --> 00:07:15,160 I didn't know you were sound. 117 00:07:15,160 --> 00:07:16,560 Finn! 118 00:07:16,560 --> 00:07:19,120 Anyway… Look I better go. 119 00:07:33,200 --> 00:07:35,280 Oh… my… Lord, 120 00:07:35,280 --> 00:07:39,800 I am never using this hand again, for anything. 121 00:07:39,800 --> 00:07:43,640 Well, maybe for one thing. 122 00:08:05,080 --> 00:08:09,480 Rae, thank God! Look, don't panic, nobody is panicking… 123 00:08:09,480 --> 00:08:11,880 …but me and Karim, we've got to leave the country. 124 00:08:11,880 --> 00:08:13,040 What?! 125 00:08:13,040 --> 00:08:15,440 We think someone's tipped off immigration. 126 00:08:15,440 --> 00:08:18,120 - Who? - Fucking Sally Crowther's mum. 127 00:08:18,120 --> 00:08:21,000 Tess who works behind the lottery counter at Food Giant, right? 128 00:08:21,000 --> 00:08:24,000 Said she was asking questions about the "exotic man" who lives here. 129 00:08:24,000 --> 00:08:27,240 What exactly do you mean you're leaving the country? 130 00:08:27,240 --> 00:08:31,560 I'm buggering off! Outside of England, to Tunisia. 131 00:08:31,560 --> 00:08:33,280 This is crazy. 132 00:08:33,280 --> 00:08:35,440 No, no, it's alright… It's only for three nights. 133 00:08:35,440 --> 00:08:36,920 It is not like we're going on holiday. 134 00:08:36,920 --> 00:08:40,520 Oh, Karim, make sure you bring the camera! Cam-er-a! 135 00:08:42,760 --> 00:08:44,800 I'm really not happy leaving you. 136 00:08:44,800 --> 00:08:46,080 Are you sure you're gonna be alright? 137 00:08:46,080 --> 00:08:48,640 - I'll be fine. - No, maybe I shouldn't go? 138 00:08:48,640 --> 00:08:50,200 'Cause last time you were on your own… 139 00:08:50,200 --> 00:08:51,960 It's not like last time. 140 00:08:52,680 --> 00:08:55,360 I'm much better than I was. 141 00:08:57,040 --> 00:08:58,800 Mum, you're scaring me! 142 00:08:58,800 --> 00:09:01,200 Taxi man! Taxi man! 143 00:09:01,200 --> 00:09:04,560 Out the way… No parties. 144 00:09:04,560 --> 00:09:06,840 I've asked Mrs. Dewhurst to keep an eye on you, 145 00:09:06,840 --> 00:09:10,680 and I'm gonna ring Kester to make sure have can bring forward your second appointment. 146 00:09:10,680 --> 00:09:14,400 No parties. I've left a list of things by the kettle. 147 00:09:14,400 --> 00:09:18,680 Go to the hospital if you don't feel well. Bye, love. 148 00:09:22,680 --> 00:09:24,920 No parties. 149 00:09:29,160 --> 00:09:35,520 What should you do when the bane of your existence finally pisses off for a bit? 150 00:09:47,960 --> 00:09:53,120 Maybe I'll just start with a movie and some ice cream. 151 00:10:17,040 --> 00:10:20,560 - How long is she away for? - She's back on Thursday. 152 00:10:23,360 --> 00:10:25,200 What's that? 153 00:10:25,200 --> 00:10:28,000 It's a present. To say sorry. 154 00:10:29,080 --> 00:10:32,120 I was a mess when you came around to mine. 155 00:10:36,040 --> 00:10:39,040 Well, I was a twat… really. 156 00:10:41,840 --> 00:10:43,360 Come here. 157 00:10:48,240 --> 00:10:51,560 So, what happened with Stephen? 158 00:10:51,560 --> 00:10:55,080 Well, we dragged it out for another three hours… 159 00:10:55,080 --> 00:10:56,840 …is what happened. 160 00:10:56,840 --> 00:10:59,080 But I don't want to talk about that. 161 00:11:00,480 --> 00:11:04,040 - So… - So… 162 00:11:04,040 --> 00:11:06,440 I guess I never finished telling you what happened to me. 163 00:11:06,440 --> 00:11:09,480 You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. It's fine. 164 00:11:09,480 --> 00:11:12,000 No, I want to. 165 00:11:18,000 --> 00:11:20,360 You said you hurt yourself. 166 00:11:21,520 --> 00:11:23,640 I was just um… 167 00:11:32,120 --> 00:11:34,040 It was March. 168 00:11:34,800 --> 00:11:37,200 My mum was on nights. 169 00:11:39,360 --> 00:11:42,720 I'd be at school in the day, I'd come back 170 00:11:42,720 --> 00:11:44,960 and my tea would be in the oven and a note. 171 00:11:44,960 --> 00:11:47,400 I didn't see her for three or four days. 172 00:11:47,400 --> 00:11:49,080 It was too quiet. 173 00:11:49,080 --> 00:11:51,640 Time to think about things… Time to think about things… 174 00:11:51,640 --> 00:11:52,920 Like my mind started screaming… 175 00:11:52,920 --> 00:11:54,640 Like my mind started screaming… 176 00:11:54,640 --> 00:11:57,040 Getting into weird patterns… Getting into weird patterns… 177 00:11:57,040 --> 00:12:01,120 Weird repetitions. Random bad thoughts… 178 00:12:01,120 --> 00:12:03,680 Something broke inside me. 179 00:12:03,680 --> 00:12:07,120 And the weight of one thing just pulled everything else apart. 180 00:12:07,120 --> 00:12:11,080 Pulled everything else apart… Pulled everything else apart… Pulled everything else apart… 181 00:12:17,480 --> 00:12:21,560 Rae, why did you do that? 182 00:12:21,560 --> 00:12:22,840 I don't know. 183 00:12:22,840 --> 00:12:25,120 Something must have made you do it? 184 00:12:25,120 --> 00:12:27,800 What were you thinking about? 185 00:12:36,120 --> 00:12:42,520 I don't know. I think sometimes people just go crazy. 186 00:12:42,520 --> 00:12:46,160 But it doesn't matter; I'm not like that anymore. 187 00:12:49,040 --> 00:12:51,000 I'm getting better. 188 00:12:51,560 --> 00:12:53,560 You sure? 189 00:12:54,640 --> 00:12:58,360 Yeah… yeah, I am. 190 00:13:04,440 --> 00:13:05,960 Good. 191 00:13:21,600 --> 00:13:24,200 I've decided I'm gonna tell everyone. 192 00:13:24,200 --> 00:13:26,440 Why? 193 00:13:27,760 --> 00:13:31,800 I just feel like a phony. I'm tired of having secrets. 194 00:13:31,800 --> 00:13:34,200 Rae, everyone's got secrets. 195 00:13:34,200 --> 00:13:38,320 I need to do this.. for me. 196 00:13:38,320 --> 00:13:40,120 OK. 197 00:13:50,200 --> 00:13:54,000 One down, two to go. 198 00:13:54,000 --> 00:13:56,960 Bollocks to the saliva tree. 199 00:13:56,960 --> 00:14:01,240 I needed to give him some of my real saliva. 200 00:14:01,240 --> 00:14:04,440 On which ever part of his body he wanted. 201 00:14:05,480 --> 00:14:08,480 And if being honest might make this happen, 202 00:14:08,480 --> 00:14:12,320 it was time to truth the fuck up. 203 00:14:20,400 --> 00:14:24,240 - Anyway, then he hugged me. - Shirtless? 204 00:14:24,240 --> 00:14:27,800 Ahh… He smelt like boy sweat and CK One, 205 00:14:27,800 --> 00:14:29,520 I thought my ovaries were gonna explode. 206 00:14:29,520 --> 00:14:31,480 So you still gonna tell him you like him…? 207 00:14:31,480 --> 00:14:33,840 You're heading towards the friend zone. 208 00:14:33,840 --> 00:14:35,040 What? 209 00:14:35,040 --> 00:14:38,480 You're heading towards the friend zone. 210 00:14:38,480 --> 00:14:40,400 What the hell are you talking about? 211 00:14:40,400 --> 00:14:44,800 So, this is basically the zone where Finn's friends live. 212 00:14:44,800 --> 00:14:50,120 And this is the zone were Finn's romantic possibilities live. 213 00:14:50,840 --> 00:14:55,280 And this… is you Rae… 214 00:14:55,280 --> 00:14:56,680 You're getting to know the guy, 215 00:14:56,680 --> 00:14:59,000 and you're going to end up in one of these two areas. 216 00:14:59,000 --> 00:15:01,560 Now tell me, which area do you want to end up in? 217 00:15:01,560 --> 00:15:04,320 - Tix? - She wants to be in the romantic zone. 218 00:15:04,320 --> 00:15:06,760 Correct, Tix, she want's to be in the romantic zone. 219 00:15:06,760 --> 00:15:10,360 But at the moment, Rae, you are heading over here. 220 00:15:10,960 --> 00:15:12,320 But we hugged! 221 00:15:12,320 --> 00:15:14,280 Exactly, that's exactly my point! 222 00:15:14,280 --> 00:15:18,480 Who do you ever hug? Your gran? Your mum? Your mates? 223 00:15:18,480 --> 00:15:22,040 AKA, people who you have no romantic interest in whatsoever. 224 00:15:22,040 --> 00:15:27,400 So go on then. How do I make it to the romantic zone? 225 00:15:27,400 --> 00:15:31,520 First off, as a general rule, no hugging! 226 00:15:31,520 --> 00:15:34,640 OK? No hugging. 227 00:15:34,640 --> 00:15:37,960 Then all you have to do is act like you don't like him. 228 00:15:37,960 --> 00:15:40,480 Treat him mean to keep him keen. 229 00:15:40,480 --> 00:15:42,800 What am I 11-years-old or something? 230 00:15:42,800 --> 00:15:46,560 It'll create tension, and tension… 231 00:15:46,560 --> 00:15:50,320 …tension is the key to getting here. 232 00:15:50,320 --> 00:15:52,760 Why can't I just be honest with him? 233 00:15:52,760 --> 00:15:54,120 Look, take it or leave it. 234 00:15:54,120 --> 00:15:55,960 Danny knows what he's talking about. 235 00:15:55,960 --> 00:16:00,520 Thanks, Tix. See me after class for some extra-curricular shenanigans. 236 00:16:02,240 --> 00:16:04,560 Tix, do you fancy him? 237 00:16:11,720 --> 00:16:15,920 Chloe… have you ever heard of the Friend Zone? 238 00:16:15,920 --> 00:16:18,480 Heard of it? You're looking at it right now. 239 00:16:18,480 --> 00:16:20,320 Do you think they like each other? 240 00:16:20,320 --> 00:16:23,920 Izzy definitely likes Chop. I reckon Chop likes Izzy. 241 00:16:23,920 --> 00:16:26,320 I just don't think he knows it yet. 242 00:16:26,320 --> 00:16:28,480 Do you think they'll ever go out with each other? 243 00:16:28,480 --> 00:16:32,000 I doubt it. There's no way out of the Friend Zone, Rae. 244 00:16:36,760 --> 00:16:38,080 How are ya? 245 00:16:38,680 --> 00:16:41,280 - Stop! - What? 246 00:16:42,440 --> 00:16:44,520 I really need to talk to Archie. 247 00:16:49,720 --> 00:16:50,960 What was all that about? 248 00:16:50,960 --> 00:16:53,800 Right, so are you going to tell me 249 00:16:53,800 --> 00:16:56,040 what happened with that guy you fancy? 250 00:16:58,200 --> 00:17:02,760 - So we kissed. - Oh, filth. 251 00:17:02,760 --> 00:17:06,240 But… I just… 252 00:17:07,920 --> 00:17:09,520 There was nothing. 253 00:17:09,520 --> 00:17:10,880 What do you mean? 254 00:17:10,880 --> 00:17:12,560 I'm shitting it, Rae. 255 00:17:12,560 --> 00:17:16,840 I've kissed girls and I've kissed boys, and I've felt nothing. 256 00:17:17,880 --> 00:17:19,400 I'm starting to think I've got no sexuality. 257 00:17:19,400 --> 00:17:24,320 Archie, how can you have no sexuality, 258 00:17:24,320 --> 00:17:26,360 especially when you were peeping all the time. 259 00:17:26,360 --> 00:17:28,800 - I did that three times! - You said it was-- 260 00:17:28,800 --> 00:17:31,960 Alright… less than ten times! 261 00:17:34,640 --> 00:17:37,040 I'm just a bit of a mess right now. 262 00:17:38,400 --> 00:17:40,280 Archie, come here. 263 00:17:41,680 --> 00:17:45,320 - Alright, love birds. - Hey, Chop. 264 00:17:45,880 --> 00:17:47,200 Where's Finn? 265 00:17:47,200 --> 00:17:49,960 He's on the phone to his mum. His gran's not well. 266 00:17:49,960 --> 00:17:52,200 Don't say… but he's pretty cut up about it. 267 00:17:52,200 --> 00:17:54,560 Here he is, the big knob head. 268 00:17:54,560 --> 00:17:57,400 So, Raemundo. 269 00:17:57,400 --> 00:18:00,320 A little birdy tells me that you've got an empty! 270 00:18:00,320 --> 00:18:01,280 Chop! 271 00:18:01,280 --> 00:18:02,800 What, I didn't tell her who told me! 272 00:18:02,800 --> 00:18:06,080 Anyway, you know what I'm thinking? 273 00:18:06,080 --> 00:18:08,720 No! No! No parties. 274 00:18:08,720 --> 00:18:12,080 I'm not talking any old party… I'm talking a sexy party. 275 00:18:12,080 --> 00:18:14,200 What's a sexy party? 276 00:18:14,200 --> 00:18:15,960 It's exactly the same as a normal party, 277 00:18:15,960 --> 00:18:17,440 but everyone brings sleeping bags 278 00:18:17,440 --> 00:18:19,120 and no one asks any questions in the morning. 279 00:18:19,120 --> 00:18:21,400 Oh, so it's basically like a sleepover, yeah? 280 00:18:21,400 --> 00:18:24,360 Can I borrow a duvet, Rae? I haven't got a sleeping bag. 281 00:18:24,360 --> 00:18:29,520 Oh, no, 'cause we're not having a party! Sexy or otherwise! 282 00:18:29,520 --> 00:18:32,480 Oh, my God, Finn, show everyone your love letter. 283 00:18:34,240 --> 00:18:37,160 - Finn's got an admirer. - What? 284 00:18:37,160 --> 00:18:39,600 Let's see it! Let's see it! 285 00:18:41,440 --> 00:18:42,480 Pink? 286 00:18:42,480 --> 00:18:47,040 "Dear Finn, You are so fit and lovely. 287 00:18:47,040 --> 00:18:51,520 I want to make you mine. Love from, X." 288 00:18:51,520 --> 00:18:53,520 Let's have a look. 289 00:18:53,520 --> 00:18:57,320 Who would even send a love letter? That is so stupid. 290 00:18:57,320 --> 00:18:59,880 Well, it's franked from Lincolnshire so it must be a local girl. 291 00:18:59,880 --> 00:19:03,680 But all letters are stamped Lincolnshire if that's where they're delivered. 292 00:19:03,680 --> 00:19:07,400 What? Letters are stamped where they're sent from, not sent to. 293 00:19:08,640 --> 00:19:10,160 You aren't serious? 294 00:19:10,160 --> 00:19:12,320 You're 16-years-old and you think letters 295 00:19:12,320 --> 00:19:15,040 are stamped where they're sent to? 296 00:19:15,040 --> 00:19:17,080 That's what my mum said. 297 00:19:21,560 --> 00:19:22,960 I'm joking! 298 00:20:54,840 --> 00:20:58,120 Diary, maybe I wasn't the only one 299 00:20:58,120 --> 00:21:00,200 with a backpack full of bullshit. 300 00:21:00,200 --> 00:21:05,480 Maybe most people had at least a pocket full of bullshit on them at all times. 301 00:21:05,480 --> 00:21:08,720 But that didn't mean everyone did. 302 00:21:08,720 --> 00:21:11,960 And it didn't mean I had to. 303 00:21:13,520 --> 00:21:19,640 In some ways I never wanted to see my mum's face ever again. 304 00:21:19,640 --> 00:21:21,120 In some ways I couldn't wait 305 00:21:21,120 --> 00:21:24,920 for her to get back, so I could finally destroy her. 306 00:21:24,920 --> 00:21:26,720 - Chop. - Hi, Rae! 307 00:21:26,720 --> 00:21:29,520 So how do you host a sexy party? 308 00:21:29,520 --> 00:21:32,320 Whoo! Yes! 309 00:21:37,520 --> 00:21:39,960 Ooh, hello. Hello. 310 00:21:39,960 --> 00:21:41,080 Alright, Rae. 311 00:21:41,080 --> 00:21:43,160 How's it going? 312 00:21:43,160 --> 00:21:46,120 - How 'bout a kiss? - Yeah, hey. 313 00:21:46,120 --> 00:21:48,120 Hey… 314 00:21:48,120 --> 00:21:50,000 Hey, Rae, give us a hug. 315 00:21:50,000 --> 00:21:53,600 No, I've got a no hugging policy. 316 00:21:53,600 --> 00:21:55,000 You just hugged Archie. 317 00:21:55,000 --> 00:21:57,640 Yeah, I just implemented it in the last three seconds. 318 00:22:02,240 --> 00:22:07,200 Chop, what are you doing? I said come around at 7:00! You're three hours early! 319 00:22:07,200 --> 00:22:09,400 I just thought it'd give you all the better time to bed in. 320 00:22:09,400 --> 00:22:14,720 Bed in? Chop, sexy parties aren't as big as normal parties, are they? 321 00:22:14,720 --> 00:22:16,920 No, it's very much an intimate affair. 322 00:22:16,920 --> 00:22:19,320 Just a few guests. Don't you worry. 323 00:22:22,720 --> 00:22:24,080 Chloe… 324 00:22:25,560 --> 00:22:27,080 - What? - I'm not sure. 325 00:22:27,080 --> 00:22:28,560 What? 326 00:22:29,240 --> 00:22:30,680 I've got a bit of a problem. 327 00:22:30,680 --> 00:22:31,920 What's up? 328 00:22:31,920 --> 00:22:34,600 - I've got therapy in an hour. - Skip it. 329 00:22:34,600 --> 00:22:35,880 I can't. 330 00:22:35,880 --> 00:22:37,480 Right, so what are you gonna tell them lot? 331 00:22:37,480 --> 00:22:39,480 Bollocks to it. I'm just gonna tell them all. 332 00:22:39,480 --> 00:22:41,840 Rae, Rae, Rae, I've thought about that and I don't think you should. 333 00:22:41,840 --> 00:22:45,800 Why not? They're my friends, Chloe, they're not gonna judge me. 334 00:22:45,800 --> 00:22:47,280 You didn't. 335 00:22:47,280 --> 00:22:48,880 They might treat you differently. 336 00:22:48,880 --> 00:22:52,120 Besides it is none of their business. 337 00:22:52,120 --> 00:22:54,400 But I'm sick of lying. 338 00:22:54,400 --> 00:22:57,360 - Rae, everyone lies. - I don't believe that. 339 00:22:57,360 --> 00:23:01,000 - Chloe, I can't believe that. - No, Rae, listen to me. 340 00:23:01,840 --> 00:23:03,920 They might not understand. 341 00:23:03,920 --> 00:23:06,160 Are you sure you want to take that risk? 342 00:23:08,080 --> 00:23:09,560 Look, don't. 343 00:23:10,520 --> 00:23:12,360 - Everyone! - There we go. 344 00:23:12,360 --> 00:23:15,160 I've um… got to nip out for a bit. 345 00:23:15,160 --> 00:23:17,800 So don't trash the place. 346 00:23:17,800 --> 00:23:19,400 What? Where you going? 347 00:23:20,320 --> 00:23:22,080 She's got to go to her uncle's 348 00:23:22,080 --> 00:23:23,520 to get some more booze. 349 00:23:23,520 --> 00:23:24,600 - Sweet. - Sweet. 350 00:23:24,600 --> 00:23:26,640 Can't fault you. 351 00:23:26,640 --> 00:23:30,400 Rae, Rae. I've got some tunes here that you might not have. 352 00:23:30,400 --> 00:23:33,440 Right, just stick 'em by the rest of the CD's then. 353 00:23:33,440 --> 00:23:35,800 I don't want to step on your toes music wise. 354 00:23:35,800 --> 00:23:39,440 I know you like to think you've got superior knowledge of music and all that. 355 00:23:39,440 --> 00:23:45,120 Yeah, right, whatever. I've got to go. 356 00:23:48,040 --> 00:23:50,920 Alright. See ya later, buddy. 357 00:23:53,000 --> 00:23:54,160 "Buddy?" 358 00:23:54,160 --> 00:23:56,560 - Buddy. - This is not good. 359 00:23:56,560 --> 00:23:59,480 You're at the very brink of the border of the friend zone. 360 00:23:59,480 --> 00:24:00,960 You know, you're at the checkpoint. 361 00:24:00,960 --> 00:24:03,160 - So what do I do? - You need tension. 362 00:24:03,160 --> 00:24:05,320 You're need to do something drastic. 363 00:24:05,320 --> 00:24:09,720 You need to make him see you in a romantic way. 364 00:24:09,720 --> 00:24:13,520 I'll come to the party. I'll pretend to be your ex-boyfriend. 365 00:24:13,520 --> 00:24:16,000 I'll tell everyone how amazing you were when we were going out. 366 00:24:16,000 --> 00:24:18,200 - How good in bed-- - What?! 367 00:24:18,200 --> 00:24:21,480 - Why not?! - Because it's just more bullshit! 368 00:24:21,480 --> 00:24:23,800 I don't give a shit that's why! 369 00:24:23,800 --> 00:24:25,560 Please, just keep your voice down. This is where I work. 370 00:24:25,560 --> 00:24:27,920 Don't tell me to keep my voice down. 371 00:24:27,920 --> 00:24:29,040 What do you want me to say? 372 00:24:29,040 --> 00:24:30,680 I don't want you to say anything. 373 00:24:30,680 --> 00:24:32,280 I tried, there's no point. 374 00:24:32,280 --> 00:24:34,360 What are we gonna do about the car? 375 00:24:34,360 --> 00:24:38,440 I need this for work. Oh, for fuck's sake. 376 00:24:43,120 --> 00:24:46,240 So how's the new Rae thing going? 377 00:24:46,240 --> 00:24:48,960 I don't think everyone's ready for the new Rae. 378 00:24:48,960 --> 00:24:52,280 Well, they better start getting ready. 379 00:24:52,280 --> 00:24:54,640 So how you coping with your mum being away? 380 00:24:54,640 --> 00:24:56,640 The first time you've been on your own 381 00:24:56,640 --> 00:24:58,160 since the night you came in, right? 382 00:24:58,160 --> 00:25:00,920 Yeah, but that was only bad because there was 383 00:25:00,920 --> 00:25:03,560 no one there to stop me sinking. 384 00:25:04,360 --> 00:25:07,160 What started you sinking? 385 00:25:08,080 --> 00:25:12,520 I was just alone and miserable. 386 00:25:12,520 --> 00:25:14,800 It's just random bad thoughts, isn't it? 387 00:25:14,800 --> 00:25:19,480 No. Behavior, it's not chaotic. 388 00:25:19,480 --> 00:25:22,840 Being on your own that night was just the trigger. 389 00:25:22,840 --> 00:25:26,280 What we need to figure out is why you don't like yourself. 390 00:25:26,280 --> 00:25:28,160 We need to start digging deeper. 391 00:25:28,160 --> 00:25:32,120 Looking at things in your past and seeing how you've made sense of them. 392 00:25:32,120 --> 00:25:35,120 Things you might not have thought about for years. 393 00:25:37,240 --> 00:25:41,240 You said that being honest made you feel better. 394 00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:46,120 Well, this is about really honesty, painfully so. 395 00:25:46,120 --> 00:25:49,320 About being honest with yourself. 396 00:25:49,720 --> 00:25:53,200 You know you can talk to me about stuff, don't you? 397 00:25:54,080 --> 00:25:55,400 What do you mean? 398 00:25:55,400 --> 00:26:00,160 I mean what've you been up to the last few days? 399 00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:01,280 Oh, not much. 400 00:26:01,280 --> 00:26:03,520 My life isn't as interesting as yours. 401 00:26:03,520 --> 00:26:05,000 Has anything happened? 402 00:26:05,000 --> 00:26:09,560 Nope. Nothing's happened. My life's very dull. 403 00:26:09,560 --> 00:26:15,120 So we can talk about anything as long as it's to do with me? 404 00:26:15,120 --> 00:26:16,360 That's just the way it is. 405 00:26:16,360 --> 00:26:19,480 I'm sorry, have I missed something here? 406 00:26:19,480 --> 00:26:21,920 Just forget it. 407 00:26:23,880 --> 00:26:27,320 OK, so let's go back to the night you came in. 408 00:26:27,320 --> 00:26:32,960 Let's just start with examining how you were feeling, what you were thinking. 409 00:26:34,280 --> 00:26:35,280 I can't remember. 410 00:26:35,280 --> 00:26:37,280 You can't remember what happened? 411 00:26:37,280 --> 00:26:38,560 Nope. 412 00:26:38,560 --> 00:26:40,480 Well, that's quite common. 413 00:26:40,480 --> 00:26:41,720 A lot of people have… 414 00:26:41,720 --> 00:26:42,960 Why should you be honest? 415 00:26:42,960 --> 00:26:46,000 Why should you ever tell anyone anything? 416 00:26:46,000 --> 00:26:48,360 Adults will tell you that you should always be truthful, 417 00:26:48,360 --> 00:26:51,480 but they're as full of it as everyone else. 418 00:26:51,480 --> 00:26:53,280 But it's all in there somewhere. 419 00:26:54,280 --> 00:26:56,800 I'm sure it is. 420 00:26:56,800 --> 00:27:00,440 Look can we finish early today? I've got something on. 421 00:27:23,040 --> 00:27:24,200 Chop… 422 00:27:25,480 --> 00:27:29,800 Chop! Chop! What happened?! 423 00:27:29,800 --> 00:27:31,640 Yeah, the numbers seem to have swelled up a bit. 424 00:27:31,640 --> 00:27:35,160 But I know everyone here, personally, I can vouch for every single one of them. 425 00:27:35,160 --> 00:27:37,160 - Who's that then? - Hannah. 426 00:27:37,160 --> 00:27:39,680 - Alright… Who's that? - Hannah? 427 00:27:39,680 --> 00:27:42,240 Alright, so I don't know everyone. 428 00:27:42,240 --> 00:27:45,840 For example… he's definitely not from Stamford. 429 00:27:51,520 --> 00:27:53,800 - Danny! - Hey, there she is! 430 00:27:53,800 --> 00:27:56,400 I've been telling everybody about when we were going out, you know. 431 00:27:56,400 --> 00:27:58,640 About our romantic break in Staffordshire. 432 00:27:58,640 --> 00:28:00,520 - What? - Anyway, like I said, 433 00:28:00,520 --> 00:28:02,960 even though we'd bought a two day pass to Alton Towers 434 00:28:02,960 --> 00:28:05,280 we didn't really want to leave the hotel room. 435 00:28:06,240 --> 00:28:08,440 I've still never been on the Corkscrew. 436 00:28:08,440 --> 00:28:12,840 - Rae, that is so wild. - Good… Good times. 437 00:28:15,720 --> 00:28:17,480 Rae, come on. 438 00:28:17,480 --> 00:28:19,240 The next thing I know, I was at reception, and she was like, 439 00:28:19,240 --> 00:28:20,520 "Can you keep the noise down a bit, 440 00:28:20,520 --> 00:28:22,200 like, we've had some complaints from next door. 441 00:28:22,200 --> 00:28:24,760 Well, that's a little bollocks, isn't it? 442 00:28:26,880 --> 00:28:28,400 Isn't it? 443 00:28:30,360 --> 00:28:33,040 Why didn't you tell me you were going out with someone at the hospital? 444 00:28:33,040 --> 00:28:34,680 How did you know he was from the hospital? 445 00:28:34,680 --> 00:28:36,240 I dunno, he's a bit odd. 446 00:28:36,240 --> 00:28:38,440 So I told them to turn the TV up. 447 00:28:38,440 --> 00:28:41,280 Or go to out and enjoy the park like the rest of the people are doing. 448 00:28:41,280 --> 00:28:43,840 Do you know what I mean? It's that simple isn't it? 449 00:28:45,640 --> 00:28:48,240 Listen Rae… Listen… Please don't make me leave. 450 00:28:48,240 --> 00:28:50,080 It's so boring back at the hospital. 451 00:28:50,080 --> 00:28:52,000 - Danny… - Listen, I've been telling 452 00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:53,520 everybody what an amazing lover you are. 453 00:28:53,520 --> 00:28:55,440 You know, not too gentle, not too strong. 454 00:28:55,440 --> 00:28:58,040 That perfect harmonious pitch between giving and greedy. 455 00:28:58,040 --> 00:29:02,360 - Right, Danny… you can stay. - OK. 456 00:29:02,360 --> 00:29:06,560 - Just don't do anything crazy. - But I am crazy. 457 00:29:06,560 --> 00:29:09,800 I've got a certificate from the government that proves it. 458 00:29:09,800 --> 00:29:13,920 Listen, does no one know you've been ill? 459 00:29:13,920 --> 00:29:16,360 I'm gonna tell them in my own time. 460 00:29:17,000 --> 00:29:19,160 Just promise me, yeah? 461 00:29:19,160 --> 00:29:22,040 I promise. Scouts honor. 462 00:29:28,840 --> 00:29:31,840 Archie, who's Finn talking to? 463 00:29:31,840 --> 00:29:36,360 Dunno, maybe he found out who sent him that love letter. 464 00:29:38,160 --> 00:29:41,640 Rae, mind if I use your phone to ring home? 465 00:29:41,640 --> 00:29:43,320 There's one in my mum's room. 466 00:29:43,320 --> 00:29:46,360 I'm going to freshen up, so I'll show you where it is. 467 00:29:48,720 --> 00:29:52,640 You're being way too subtle. Remember, he's a boy, we don't do subtle. 468 00:29:52,640 --> 00:29:54,880 Ignore him. You need tension! 469 00:30:07,320 --> 00:30:09,760 - Is this where the party is? - No. 470 00:30:11,160 --> 00:30:12,920 Come on! We ain't gonna cause any trouble. 471 00:30:12,920 --> 00:30:14,120 Is everything alright here, Rae? 472 00:30:14,120 --> 00:30:16,560 - Who's this midget? - I'm her ex-boyfriend. 473 00:30:16,560 --> 00:30:18,400 Jesus, you poor fucker. 474 00:30:18,400 --> 00:30:19,960 Is there gonna be a problem here? 475 00:30:19,960 --> 00:30:21,840 Yeah, there is gonna be a problem. 476 00:30:21,840 --> 00:30:23,520 What you gonna do about it? 477 00:30:23,520 --> 00:30:24,640 I don't know. 478 00:30:24,640 --> 00:30:25,840 I'm a bit mental, you see, 479 00:30:25,840 --> 00:30:27,360 I'm a bit unpredictable. 480 00:30:27,360 --> 00:30:29,320 Right, well, why don't you piss off inside 481 00:30:29,320 --> 00:30:31,280 before I get unpredictable. 482 00:30:31,920 --> 00:30:33,200 What do you lot want? 483 00:30:33,200 --> 00:30:35,200 Nothing we just want to have a drink and that. 484 00:30:35,200 --> 00:30:36,480 You're not welcome. 485 00:30:36,480 --> 00:30:38,320 Listen, I told my brother about Finn last week 486 00:30:38,320 --> 00:30:39,800 and he said if any of you ever touch me again 487 00:30:39,800 --> 00:30:40,960 he's gonna knock you out. 488 00:30:40,960 --> 00:30:42,640 Yeah, well, you're not coming in. 489 00:30:42,640 --> 00:30:45,400 I guess we'll just stand here all night then. 490 00:30:45,400 --> 00:30:46,760 Alright. 491 00:30:46,760 --> 00:30:48,400 Jog on, you big bunch of fannies! 492 00:30:48,400 --> 00:30:50,440 You fucking scumbag! 493 00:30:50,440 --> 00:30:52,520 - Go on. Fuck off! - Oh, my God. 494 00:31:06,600 --> 00:31:09,200 Right! Right! Right! 495 00:31:09,200 --> 00:31:12,080 We'll have a couple of rounds of normal spin the bottle. 496 00:31:12,080 --> 00:31:16,840 Just as a warm up. Then we can spice things up a bit. 497 00:31:21,000 --> 00:31:25,080 You know he only organizes things like this so he can get off with someone, don't you? 498 00:31:26,520 --> 00:31:28,200 Rae? 499 00:31:28,520 --> 00:31:30,200 Rae?! 500 00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:31,120 What? 501 00:31:31,120 --> 00:31:32,600 Seriously, are you deaf? 502 00:31:32,600 --> 00:31:33,960 Chill out, I couldn't hear you. 503 00:31:33,960 --> 00:31:35,000 Of course, you could hear me. 504 00:31:35,000 --> 00:31:36,840 Alright. One, two, three… 505 00:31:41,440 --> 00:31:44,040 - The almighty Barnstable. - Yes… 506 00:31:44,040 --> 00:31:45,480 Next one, next one. 507 00:31:50,520 --> 00:31:51,840 Archibald! 508 00:31:51,840 --> 00:31:54,440 I'm not even playing, mate, no. 509 00:31:54,800 --> 00:31:56,080 No… 510 00:32:02,480 --> 00:32:05,000 So… so who's this Danny guy then? 511 00:32:05,000 --> 00:32:07,360 - What's it to you? - It's not to me. 512 00:32:07,360 --> 00:32:09,760 I just wondered what school he went to. 513 00:32:09,760 --> 00:32:10,920 Or if he's from around here. 514 00:32:10,920 --> 00:32:12,800 No, he's not from around here. 515 00:32:12,800 --> 00:32:14,360 Ready? 516 00:32:24,760 --> 00:32:26,520 - Go and get me a drink. - What? 517 00:32:26,520 --> 00:32:29,080 - Quick. Now! - Get your own drink. 518 00:32:29,080 --> 00:32:32,720 Go on, mate! 519 00:32:32,720 --> 00:32:34,400 Get in there! 520 00:32:42,760 --> 00:32:46,840 Right, right! No messing about. We're upping the stakes. 521 00:32:46,840 --> 00:32:51,240 Couples have to go in the landing cupboard together, for a minute. 522 00:32:51,240 --> 00:32:54,960 No exceptions, you cheeky little… 523 00:33:00,280 --> 00:33:04,880 Raemundo! She's going in the cupboard of lust. 524 00:33:04,880 --> 00:33:07,720 But who will it be with? Ohh! 525 00:33:08,680 --> 00:33:11,240 One, two, three… 526 00:33:12,400 --> 00:33:14,200 I wished for Archie, 527 00:33:14,200 --> 00:33:16,960 we could just go in there and chat. 528 00:33:16,960 --> 00:33:20,400 I wished for Chop, just a friendly fumble. 529 00:33:20,400 --> 00:33:26,040 I just wished for someone who wouldn't be disappointed that they had to kiss me. 530 00:33:26,560 --> 00:33:29,120 Oh, my God, what if it's Finn? 531 00:33:29,120 --> 00:33:33,480 What if my breath smells? What if I burp in his mouth? 532 00:33:33,480 --> 00:33:37,960 It won't be Finn… It won't be Finn… It won't be Finn… 533 00:33:38,600 --> 00:33:40,320 Oh, shit! 534 00:34:02,600 --> 00:34:05,960 - Rae… - Yeah? 535 00:34:05,960 --> 00:34:08,760 Why are you being such a complete knobhead to me? 536 00:34:08,760 --> 00:34:10,680 Sorry? 537 00:34:10,680 --> 00:34:12,920 Did I do something to annoy you? 538 00:34:12,920 --> 00:34:15,080 No… I just… 539 00:34:15,080 --> 00:34:16,880 Then why you mugging me off all the time? 540 00:34:16,880 --> 00:34:19,600 I apologized for being a bit funny with you when we met, 541 00:34:19,600 --> 00:34:20,840 but that's because I didn't know you. 542 00:34:20,840 --> 00:34:23,000 Not one minute you're dead nice to me, 543 00:34:23,000 --> 00:34:24,840 and then the next you're just being totally rude. 544 00:34:24,840 --> 00:34:26,680 I'm not trying to be rude. 545 00:34:26,680 --> 00:34:29,040 Then maybe it just comes naturally to you. 546 00:34:30,920 --> 00:34:32,720 I thought we were getting on. 547 00:34:32,720 --> 00:34:34,920 Thirty seconds left, love birds! 548 00:34:34,920 --> 00:34:36,920 It's not as simple as that is it? 549 00:34:36,920 --> 00:34:38,880 It is as simple as that, Rae, 550 00:34:38,880 --> 00:34:41,320 either we're friends or we're not friends. 551 00:34:41,320 --> 00:34:43,200 Maybe I don't want to be your friend. 552 00:34:43,200 --> 00:34:44,720 You what? 553 00:34:44,720 --> 00:34:48,720 Maybe… I don't want to be your friend… 554 00:34:48,720 --> 00:34:50,400 Why not? 555 00:34:55,600 --> 00:34:58,480 Hey… who's next?! 556 00:35:13,440 --> 00:35:14,880 If you're struggling for somewhere to sleep tonight 557 00:35:14,880 --> 00:35:16,680 there's enough room in my sleeping bag. 558 00:35:16,680 --> 00:35:18,360 Oh, really? Really? 559 00:35:26,360 --> 00:35:29,000 I'm not been funny, but can we stop playing this now? 560 00:35:29,000 --> 00:35:30,560 No. I've not kissed anyone yet! 561 00:35:30,560 --> 00:35:33,160 Are you sure you're still capable of still kissing someone? 562 00:35:33,160 --> 00:35:35,120 I don't even think anyone else is even playing. 563 00:35:35,120 --> 00:35:36,680 - I'm playing. - Oh, well, great, 564 00:35:36,680 --> 00:35:39,320 you two just kiss each other and everyone can chill out. 565 00:35:39,320 --> 00:35:43,440 What? Izzy? Jesus… 566 00:35:43,760 --> 00:35:45,520 Fine. 567 00:35:59,840 --> 00:36:03,080 it's like kissing a corpse. 568 00:36:05,640 --> 00:36:06,960 Mingy. 569 00:36:19,480 --> 00:36:23,400 Chop… Where's Finn? 570 00:36:33,560 --> 00:36:35,040 Finn? 571 00:36:37,920 --> 00:36:39,440 Oh, shit! 572 00:36:41,840 --> 00:36:44,520 Oh, Finn, I'm so sorry. 573 00:36:45,760 --> 00:36:48,080 I'm sorry… 574 00:36:50,720 --> 00:36:52,720 It's alright. 575 00:37:47,360 --> 00:37:49,560 I thought you weren't having a party? 576 00:37:49,560 --> 00:37:51,680 I wanted to piss my mum off. 577 00:37:53,960 --> 00:37:57,800 - You alright? - Yeah, I suppose. 578 00:37:57,800 --> 00:38:04,520 You'd have liked my nan. She was always talking about something. 579 00:38:04,520 --> 00:38:07,200 - What you trying to say? - Nothing! 580 00:38:07,200 --> 00:38:10,240 Just you're always banging on about it… 581 00:38:10,240 --> 00:38:12,480 You cheeky bas… 582 00:38:12,480 --> 00:38:14,200 No, I mean in a good way! 583 00:38:14,200 --> 00:38:19,240 I like it! I like talking to you. 584 00:38:19,240 --> 00:38:22,880 And I don't like talking to anybody… 585 00:38:27,080 --> 00:38:29,120 So are we alright? 586 00:38:29,680 --> 00:38:32,840 Yeah. We're alright. 587 00:39:40,400 --> 00:39:44,960 You alright? You seem happy today. 588 00:39:45,800 --> 00:39:48,840 I'm gay, Rae. I'm gay. 589 00:39:48,840 --> 00:39:52,880 - And pleased about it? - Fucking delirious. 590 00:40:14,800 --> 00:40:19,160 Churchill… Where's Tix? 591 00:40:19,160 --> 00:40:20,880 It was… it was something about. 592 00:40:20,880 --> 00:40:23,200 Danny… Danny, it's Rae. 593 00:40:23,200 --> 00:40:24,640 I've had a great time. 594 00:40:24,640 --> 00:40:26,680 It's just nice to get out of the hospital, isn't it? 595 00:40:26,680 --> 00:40:30,560 It was noisy, wasn't it? It was… something. 596 00:40:30,560 --> 00:40:36,040 - Yeah… - It was about something… it was noise. Loud. 597 00:40:36,040 --> 00:40:40,800 - Yeah, right… come on… - Noise, music… 598 00:40:59,400 --> 00:41:02,920 - Will he be alright? - Yeah, he's fine. 599 00:41:02,920 --> 00:41:04,720 You need your hat back. 600 00:41:04,720 --> 00:41:08,240 No, mate, it's yours. You can keep it. 601 00:41:08,240 --> 00:41:10,880 - …I'll see you later. - See ya. 602 00:41:11,960 --> 00:41:15,800 - Thanks. Bye! - Bye. 603 00:41:18,440 --> 00:41:20,920 Bye. Yeah. 604 00:41:22,840 --> 00:41:25,160 Alright, I'll give you a ring this week, yeah? 605 00:41:25,160 --> 00:41:27,000 Alright, cool. 606 00:41:43,320 --> 00:41:44,880 I hope he's gonna be alright. 607 00:41:44,880 --> 00:41:48,440 Yeah, he'll be fine when he gets back. 608 00:41:48,440 --> 00:41:50,800 Chloe, listen. I was thinking… 609 00:41:50,800 --> 00:41:53,200 You know about me telling everyone… 610 00:41:53,200 --> 00:41:55,520 Let's just keep it between us. 611 00:41:56,040 --> 00:41:57,560 OK. 612 00:42:00,120 --> 00:42:04,440 So what happened with you and Finn in the cupboard last night? 613 00:42:04,440 --> 00:42:09,000 - It was interesting. - Can I tell you something? 614 00:42:09,000 --> 00:42:11,880 What? 615 00:42:11,880 --> 00:42:14,360 It was me who sent that letter to Finn. 616 00:42:15,200 --> 00:42:17,800 What? When did you do that? 617 00:42:17,800 --> 00:42:19,920 When I broke up with Stephen. 618 00:42:19,920 --> 00:42:25,440 I just wanted to feel normal. Be involved in something normal. 619 00:42:26,320 --> 00:42:30,080 - Does that even make sense? - No. 620 00:42:30,080 --> 00:42:34,320 The more I spent time with him this week, I don't know… I just… 621 00:42:34,320 --> 00:42:35,600 I think there's something about him. 622 00:42:35,600 --> 00:42:37,400 - Do you know what I mean? - Definitely not. 623 00:42:37,400 --> 00:42:39,360 - Watch this space anyway. - No. 624 00:42:39,360 --> 00:42:41,720 - What? - What? 625 00:42:41,720 --> 00:42:43,840 Do you like anyone at the minute? 626 00:42:46,520 --> 00:42:47,520 No… 627 00:42:48,000 --> 00:42:49,560 - No? - No… 628 00:42:54,480 --> 00:42:57,840 Maybe some bullshit is best kept in your pocket. 629 00:42:57,840 --> 00:42:59,880 Or your backpack. 630 00:42:59,880 --> 00:43:03,400 Or even your Olympic-sized swimming pool. 631 00:43:07,000 --> 00:43:08,840 The weather here is relentless. 632 00:43:08,840 --> 00:43:10,400 They've called off the local games. 633 00:43:10,400 --> 00:43:12,440 No cable tossing for this year… 634 00:43:12,440 --> 00:43:15,440 Don't know if you've heard of a rock band called Oasis? 635 00:43:15,440 --> 00:43:19,000 Anyway, I'm rocking out. You'd be embarrassed. 636 00:43:19,000 --> 00:43:22,360 I hope school is OK. I was terrible at school. 637 00:43:22,360 --> 00:43:25,600 Don't feel bad if you get frustrated with your exams. 638 00:43:25,600 --> 00:43:27,640 It's a really difficult time. 639 00:43:27,640 --> 00:43:29,280 But know that I love you. 640 00:43:29,280 --> 00:43:33,400 I care about you so much even though it may not seem like it. 641 00:43:33,400 --> 00:43:35,160 Hiya…! 642 00:43:35,160 --> 00:43:38,280 - Hello! - We're back. 643 00:43:38,280 --> 00:43:41,480 Oh, my God. Right, I'm gonna put a brew on. 644 00:43:41,480 --> 00:43:43,480 Karim, tell her. 645 00:43:47,680 --> 00:43:50,960 Uh… we are… 646 00:43:50,960 --> 00:43:53,360 - Married! - Yes, marriage! 647 00:43:53,360 --> 00:43:55,040 Married! 648 00:43:57,040 --> 00:43:59,760 Oh, think about it, Rae. No more sneaking about! 649 00:43:59,760 --> 00:44:02,560 Karim can stay. What do you think? 650 00:44:02,560 --> 00:44:05,920 I know it's a bit sudden. But we had no choice really… 651 00:44:20,880 --> 00:44:22,440 Is everything alright? 652 00:44:30,760 --> 00:44:32,320 What? 653 00:44:38,600 --> 00:44:40,520 Congratulations.